Getting to "There"

                          There are objects and items that appear on :  "Everyone's 'Must Have' List" ; among them duct tape, a hammer, both types of screw-drivers [slotted and phillips] , Vise Grips, pliers, {some wood * argue, a 'Monkey Wrench'} , but I MUST >Insist<  >>>perforated metal strapping<<< AND 'mechanic's wire' actually complete the tool box of rudiments .   

             Of course it ain't no use to HAVE these items if you don't know their application and HOW to use them --- stories for 'Another Time' .   Whatever ~~~~~~~~~ .   

              It took FIFTEEN and a half FOREVERS to devise a system from which the Mirror can be secured .   Def not proud of that but being ashamed is far too HARSH .   I got 'there' and I SUPPOSE that "counts for something" {{{{but prob-ly NOT}}}.

              There're no Secrets concerning pms .  It has perfect holes, it's STRONG and it's pliant .   I don't know why it's so                 rated .  

                                        under

            

PMS

                         I shouldn't hafta* report this but just to be "on the safe side" I gotta tell ya(s) , "Things come alive", meaning, they "take on" human [identities] {for lack of a better word} .   I have an almost-used-up coil of "perforated metal strapping" that is holding my Pen/Sword >>>Hostage.   I know, I know, it shouldn't be happening but I'm here to confess =  'it's' happening, even now as I prepare to "cave" into writing {rwiting} about this >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> item .

               Sometime ago,  in  a  fit   of    INSANITY   I  hit  the   closet   door   [KWITE BY ACCIDENT]  --- the impact dislodged a 'mirror thingy' and I saw it fall to the floor in a violent display of flimsy and flamsy .  I was INSTANTLY "heartsick" -   the piece may not have been of Museum Quality but it was QOOL* as in "Wicket Qool" .   I resigned myself to glue it and return it to its 'hy* vis' location .

                Shattered things MAY become puzzles and so it was to me .   I congfess that it took me 2 FREAKING WEEKS to devise a procedure to assemble the item with INTELLIGENCE and Structural Integrity and now that I have completed THAT level the next is at hand, meaning, I must now devise a hanging/support rig that will secure the Item properly ----------------enter "Perforated Metal Strapping" {with FLOURISH} .  So now I'm just an old guy with PMS .

              

          

proem

                                                                       Thing is, 

                                          {as Boxing Champion Bobby Chacon noted}

                                                    "You gotta do what you gotta do" :  

                                                                    well taken -- 

                                                          and as far as THAT goes -  

                                        I will work TIRELESSLY to find shit I'm NOT gonna do .   

You herda the 'Philly Phreeze' ?

                         I got out thinking to feel 49 degree warmth and was SHOCKED to fee-ill >freezing< instead.   One thermometer read 28 the other 27 so, I mean, I was all-ready to KICK-ASS and do some SUPER-IMPORTANT Nothin', a Condition of Retirement FRAUGHT with TONS-O-SHIT that MUST-BE done in order to maintain some semblance of physical cohesion to the tasks of duty and obligation .   I mean it this way :   I OWE "IT" to myself to do "all that I can" to ensure stability but more often than NOT more often I laze about with the Prospect of transforming into Stupor-man a readily a available alternative to "nose to the grindstone" and "fingers to the bone" {psychotic} resolve .   I'm weak and lazy................................. .

"The China Syndrome"

                          There are those that "make the most searching demands of others but fail to make those SAME demands on themselves" .    This kind of Attitude is some of the Cause of contempt-able Apathy that resulted in "stay-at-home" {Socio-Political} Malfeasance .  In America, if these "Stay-at-homes" had voted PERHAPS trump would be wallowing in his own open cesspool .   Good, Honest and Decent folks that DO NOTHING should no longer be considered >>  Good, Honest,, and Decent .

             

DIY

                         Some Time ago a young Arabic Woman was being interviewed --  she spoke eloquently of the shit, piss,, and corruption of her "Environment" but when asked if she would seek Public Office she said this :  "Politics is dirty."  She declined to seek office bc of this >>> FILTH .

             I know my Precious Readers can see the Problem :   If Good, Honest,, and DECENT Folks don't "run for office" [then] that leaves only the sullied and contempt-able to do so .   We are living the Results of this Condition .   The PROBLEM is that each and every Citizen SHOULD-BE Good, Honest and Decent enough to ACTUALIZE their Democracy RIGHT to engage in Public Discussion {I wanted to use Awareness} to such a degree that they GET Informed and STAY Informed so that REASONABLE Measures are NOT left on the "Cutting Floor" to be swept up by Juan(s) and Juanita(s) as part of their daily and nightly tasks .   

             I mean it this way :   We pay for these ASSHOLES to DO THEIR JOBS bc WE are busy doing ours .   But when things go {Confederate} South there is this MAXIM :  "If you want something done Right DO IT YOURSELF" .   I mean shit------ "Truer words were never spoken."

...democraps...

                          It INFURIATES me to hear congress folks implore : "It up to you" ; meaning, it's "up to" [us] Common Citizens , to "Fight back" .    To me, that is such a callously IMBECILIC statement that recognizes that those same congress folks are FAILING to execute the tasks, responsibilities and OBLIGATIONS that their "position" DEMANDS .   Here I use "FAILING" instead of REFUSING bc I am giving them some leeway of doubt ----- These democraptic* OUTLAWS are STEALING money in that they are getting paid FOR DOING NOTHING --- If that isn't outright THIEVERY then what IS ???

...to feel what's real...

                         I suppose the Goals are the same as they have always been = Peace, Prosperity, Health and Security {from outside Invaders} .   To have "just surviving" is to have "the bar" that is resting on the ground, at its lowest level .   I haven't decided if  >merely surviving<  is the most appropriate form of Inner Resolve .   I mean that this way , what are the other Forms of Resolve that best suit the Conditions-at-hand ?   I  FEEL  as if our hands are bound and are feet shackled, indeed, I have insisted that not only are we SURROUNDED but we have "no place to stand" .  With what does that leave us ?  

"Mindfullness"

                         Today's  Topic  is  suppose-to-be  'about'  Trajectory  and  Orientation  :  specifically, 'about' "Holding" one's Mind .   "Holding" is used by Buddhists and Zen Buddhists to describe a Mental State of Maintenance, meaning, [and here's the phrase Buddhist use] "How do you KEEP your Mind in Focus, ESPECIALLY  to  solve  Problems  [or find the answer to whatever kong-an (koan) that one is "working-on'].   In our case, How do we "keep" our Minds NORMAL during this CRISIS of Democracy and the Advent of Tyranny .  This order calls for a nu* Orientation, and even, perhaps, nu Goals, which then (Force) a sympathetic Trajectory .  On the most basic level =  How the fuck do we keep our fucking SANITY under the Rule of a megalomaniac who is educationally an IMBECILE but who possess "Pied Piper" Sorcery ????   

Yesterday

                         I thought I had a "first line"---I don't .   I went outside to check on the conditions :  dark, wet, foggy, but late-Spring mild .   Spring HAS "arrived" but it's the U. Mass Spring, almost  muddy everywhere,  Amherst  cloaked  in  mist   and fog  =  Beauty  for  sure  despite  the  muted  colors ... .

            I apologize for the way I left things yesterday --- as usual I "ran out of gas" and I abandoned the site to ease the pain in my back and get outdoors where far more pleasing tasks awaited .    I routinely bum myself out --- something I live with -- for really no good Reason .   I wish I were better at "Bringing things to Conclusion"-- I guess {{{I KNOW}}} I'm NOT that guy .

            I know what happened and why ~~~~ Topics that have ground down my resistance find their way into my "pen" in such a way that they APPEAR to be part of the original focus but as you gyze* have read --- there are problems .   I concluded with a stint about Fighting but I did NOT >>connect<< Fighting to a Social ConsciousNess*  ----- not exactly a small "faux-pas" .

"See Spot run" .

                          You get these kids that SAY they want to learn Martial Arts but when they are introduced to "Fighting" {Forms} they "shrink-back" .  I had one young chickling actually say ,  "I don't want to fight, I just want the Art" .   What the fuck are you suppose to DO about that except squeeze out a "THAT is Martial Art ESSENCE " .   2 Words :   these kids don't last .    Martial Art is LITERALLY "Self Defense" .   If you DON'T-WANNA Fight you had better learn to RUN FAST .

"I CAN'T BREATHE"

                          I've used the trope of  >Mirror-Mirror on the wall<  to exemplify HOW {by what means} Truth  is  delivered  but  the  Delivery is NOT the  Problem  so much as it {the Problem} is the REFUSAL to believe the Truth .    I have described "The Darkness" as the woefully MALIGNANT Cancer that has pervaded the American Body Politic to such an extent that {I hazard} most Americans are simply and SAVAGELY Exhausted by the Truth --- which is characterized by UNRELENTING SENSORY BOMBARDMENT of Propagandal Calamity .    Here it is where Good, HONEST,, and Decent Folks simply CANNOT muster the Inner Energy and Soul Resolve to confront "The System" and its SUFFOCATING STRANGLE HOLD .   Here it is where all we CAN "muster" are the DYING WORDS of an INNOCENT Human Being :   "I CAN'T BREATHE" .

Super Torpor

                          The demoCRAPS refuse to FIGHT and it AIN'T bc they are philosophically OPPOSED to trump's version of Hitlerism* ---- nope it aint THAT at all .   These ASSHOLES actually DEFINE "Cowardice" --- a Cowardice of the HIGHEST Order :  it is so bc of the Nature of trumpist Political Cruelty,,, which seeks to PREY on the Weak and the Indigent {not to mention the Old and Infirm} .  Nope, "What we got HERE is a 'Failure to Communicate", a Failure marked by a set of rhetorical Polemics {{ I mean  what  else  WOULD  it  be ?}}   that seeks to EXCUSE a political STUPOR {better phrased as Torpor} .   They "talk the talk" but when it "comes-down-to" "rolling up the sleeves" and ACTUALLY "walking-the-walk" [walking into BATTLE} those ASSHOLES would have NONE of >>> IT .   They don't want "Blood on their hands" as if THAT will ensure their uncomely entry it a "meek shall inherit the Earth" ----------------> HELL .

Dope-a-Hope

                          I promised myself I would rwite everyday but I broke that promise as kwikly* as I could .  I'm both weak AND Pathetic but hey---that's just me and who I am {rite now} .

           In Children's Literature, how many times have we encountered, "...and Darkness descended EVERYWHERE upon the Land" ?   So why is it that I should IGNORE this Darkness and present a rainbow-rosy out-look that only a dim-wit would appreciate (?) only to try to appease [mollify] those that dread the Darkness and delusion themselves with >>>Hope<<< .   Can't do it .

           

            

"Angela's Ashes"

                          Sometime in the "While Ago" of the "Way Before" I watched an interview of  Frank McCourt the Author of Angela's Ashes .   He was "up-there" in age but was able to write a book of memoirs about his Mom .  I liked the guy straight-away, because---despite--- his age he was still able to generate such loving text { writing as Art via "Grand-Ma Moses"} .   Soon after that [observation] I listened to a respected Intellectual describe McCourt's Book as "same old Irish {get this" RANT .   I was both sickened and ENRAGED .   I HAD liked this {now} ASSHOLE so it was a "Double Whammy" .

               I'm rwiting* this morning due to a feeling of shame and embarrassment .   Every morning I argue with  SEVERAL  of  my  "Other Selfs"   because  they  would  have me Rwite >> whether or NOT<< the shyte* I generate is any >>>Good .   I DON'T like rwiting when my Heart-Mind isn't "into it" .   I feel as if it's senseless dribble ~~~~ the dregs and dross from my barrel of "shit, piss,, and fucking corruption" .  I don't want to be tagged with >>>> "the same old Portuguese Rant" .   

Big Bother and the Holding Company

                      There are brief 'respites' that are of High [HY] {pun intended}  value because during these thought vacancies Other Worldly `information` [perhaps not the best word] 'Arrives' .   This Information CANNOT   Arrive   if one's Mind is pre-occupied with the day's `trivial pursuits`---here it is where the Mind MUST-BE --->Empty<--- , free of thoughts and free of THINKING,, if the Universe is to be successful with Its 'dispensation(s)' .   

            I keep clipboards with legal pads near EVERY job-site so that when this Information "Arrives" I can record it .   I am  a  HUGE Fan of Maryjane since it is SHE who stimulates my Imagination that IT may be "receptive" to WHATEVER the Universe accords .   This is where the "HOLDING" is imperatively important .   When I have difficulty summoning my own view and OBVIOUSLY View Points .   Now do I NEED MJ {MaryJane} OBVIOUSLY ---> NOT  but what She does is INCLUDE my Body Dharma with the Substance of BEING .  Getting HY is BEING --- I LOVE the Intensity that She brings to me --transforming me to a Cosmic ENTITY .  I KNOW this conceit is PATHETICALLY Romantic but it's what I have rite-now .

Stereo-sophic

                       I have a penchant for using scenes from popular films to support whatever it is I am writing about  in  order  to  add   `dimension-ality  {richness and depth}  which [then] lubricates the 'way' toward understanding and appreciation .      Yesterday, while re-viewing old notes,, I  came  upon  "stereo-sophic" -- in  an  instant  I  recognized   its value  as a term to describe the 'above' .   'Stereo' refers to dual channels of information output = the facts of the Truth on one channel ;  the scene's >display< to cite similarity or parallel  on the other .    I'm certain my Readers know that >Sophia< means Wisdom =  Wisdom within Film~~~~~~~~~ I don't think  'it's'  a     s-t--r---e----t-----c------h . 

The Siege of Leningrad

                       800,000 inhabitants died from Nazi Siege Warfare .   Thing is >>> the city SURVIVED and ultimately DEFEATED the Nazi forces .   You want GUTS ?    Russia got it .

          The Soviet FEAR of Nazis and Nazi-ism is completely understandable but what makes it  modern HORROR is the UNREMITTING use of PROPAGANDA to KEEP the Russian Psyche OPPOSED to ANYTHING >>>Western ---- ALL of which are based upon the Remembrances of Leningrad .  Here it is where DEMOCRACY is the Root and Source of ALL Russian Fears and Hatreds .    Here it is where WWII  >>>NEVER ENDED<<< --- The War against Democracy is PERCEIVED as the War against NAZI-ISM .   You want "fucked-up" ???     Russia got Fucked-uP !!!

           

The "Ruskies"

                       I got to College and everything changed once more .   We had to read TOLSTOY but guess where -----  CHILDREN'S LITERATURE {with Professor Francella Butler} .   Then of course there was Modern Novels with the Chairman of the English Department, Dr. Moynihan who introduced us to DOSTOEVSKY and his The Brothers Karamazov which was unlike ANYTHING I had ever read .   These were BRILLIANT MEN who gave the World some of the most IMMACULATE Literature ever written .  Combine THAT with a twin-cylinder air-cooled diesel tractor from Belarus and my FEELINGS for Russia were ampLIFIED .   The Russian People were NOT >>>the Problem<<< .  Russian Fine Arts were among the GREATEST on the Planet .  Nope---I had NOTHING against the Russian Peoples .

Sputnik

                       Once my Generation read Orwell's Animal Farm [copyright 1946] and 1984 [copyright 1949] we were avowed ENEMIES OF THE SOVIET UNION !!!!   Fear begot Hatred ... and indeed, I was scared shit and it got worse .   Sputnik changed the World Order .   Everyone figured :  `If they can put a satellite in Orbit then they could put Nuclear Devices in Orbit as well` .    Everyone figured that BECAUSE the Soviets controlled Space THEY CONTROLLED THE WORLD since THERE WAS NO PLACE  ON  EARTH  WHERE  A  SOVIET  NUCLEAR  DEVICE  COULD  NOT  BE  DETONATED !!!!!  "No where to run to---no place to hide" {{as the Song 'goes'}}  .   Safety and Security were IMPOSSIBLE !!!! 

"WE WILL BURY YOU !!!"

                       One of the deadliest images from my childhood is of Nikita Khrushcev at the United Nations banging his shoe upon his desk and bellowing to the U.S. 

                                                           "WE WILL BURY YOU !!!!" .  

 I'm in my 74th orbit of the Sun and this image is as brutally INTENSE as it was in 'Real Time' .    Here it was that Russia was Considered AN ENEMY OF THE UNITED STATES AND THE WORLD !!!!!  The Soviets were SUPERIOR in Space Age Technologies and had enough Nukes to OBLITERATE an entire Planet !!!!!!!!   They were to be FEARED and when you're a kid Russia SCARED THE FUCK OUT OF ALL OF US !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                  We grew up with the THREAT of Nuclear ANNIHILATION as "EVER PRESENT" each day and EVERY day .   You think that caused Trauma that was REPAIRABLE ?????????    

                   Please---------- think again .

Terra Infirma

                        I spent yesterday working on what I have tagged a `barn bench` better described as-a* huge-fucking-work-bench .    I've seen these 'benches' that stretch half the length of a barn wall ,  made from 2 inch planks and 4 x 4 legs and cross members, along with whatever relevant 2 x 6's that happen to be lying around .   I was running-away from the WH bushwhack of my HERO Zelenskyy . 

           In a bygone era I stayed awake to witness the first step -by a human- on the Moon .  It was EPOCH changing ------- and  now  I  can  state  that  I  was   THERE  when trump HANDED-OVER a NATION to putin .

            Trump's "lock, stock and barrel" DELIVERY of the U.S. to putin EQUALS the IMPACT of 9-11 ---  in fact I argue that it EXCEEDS 9-11 because the [Political] "face" of the Planet has been changed in TECTONIC Scope and Measure .  

             Earth will NEVER "be the same" .