Yesterday

                         I thought I had a "first line"---I don't .   I went outside to check on the conditions :  dark, wet, foggy, but late-Spring mild .   Spring HAS "arrived" but it's the U. Mass Spring, almost  muddy everywhere,  Amherst  cloaked  in  mist   and fog  =  Beauty  for  sure  despite  the  muted  colors ... .

            I apologize for the way I left things yesterday --- as usual I "ran out of gas" and I abandoned the site to ease the pain in my back and get outdoors where far more pleasing tasks awaited .    I routinely bum myself out --- something I live with -- for really no good Reason .   I wish I were better at "Bringing things to Conclusion"-- I guess {{{I KNOW}}} I'm NOT that guy .

            I know what happened and why ~~~~ Topics that have ground down my resistance find their way into my "pen" in such a way that they APPEAR to be part of the original focus but as you gyze* have read --- there are problems .   I concluded with a stint about Fighting but I did NOT >>connect<< Fighting to a Social ConsciousNess*  ----- not exactly a small "faux-pas" .