The Orient

                       I didn't know WHERE I was headed .  I didn't know {exactly} what the {my} Goal was, all I DID know, was that I felt shitty most of the time, and disconnected from The Campus's Psyche .   I started hearing things ----  "Heart of Gold" among them ---  folks wanted to be around others who spoke no evil, who were FUN to be around, blah-blah-blah ---  I mean, it sounded good, to have a Heart of Gold and to be liked, to have folks WANT to be in your "Circle" .   Ultimately I dismissed it,  those kids seemed vacuous and chained to a superficiality that I just COULD-NOT accept .  No, there would be no "Heart of Gold" for me .   Years and EONS later, I was to "want" a Heart of BOLD .   Where there is Boldness, there is a WILLINGNESS  to accept RISK as a viable  means to advance in a POSITIVE direction .  But even before that, ORIENTATION was a problem,  Orientation is like a Physics of sorts--- exactly HOW was I to be Oriented ?