Coma Elian

                             I've been away, far FAR away .   Months have elapsed, EONS in 'mental time' --- I was never able to reconcile Zen with the day-to-day AGONIES of War ---  I've wondered :  talent ?  ability ??   Zen DOES "work" but maybe only for combatants -- soldiers, warriors and the like, but what of us 'street people' ?????

             I even lost Faith in Faith ---now how the fuck can THAT be ???   I mean it this way :  What is the Essence of Harris's Campaign, meaning, what is HER Essence ?   Have I the penetrative Strength to extract such an Essence ?   "The days passed as days pass" to quote Hesse, each day a Battle to hold the Question that would "break-open" Secrets fortified by sub- and UNConscious 'Filters' i.e., defense mechanisms that curtail advance into the Realms of Hidden Sorrows --  the Sorrows of Rage and Fears -- the Sorrows of unrequited Love -- the Sorrows of a Helplessness that bespeaks of  mental paralysis and emotional coma .