In many ways I am nothing more than a seething malcontent . I am Angry all the time . I am agonizingly aware of my flaws, shortcomings, mental deformities and profound Ignorance . A War Wages within me every minute of every day, the War against my own Ignorance that manifests as self loathing . Oddly, I have had access to Satisfaction and even Contentment ------why I don't Seek to reside in these Paradises is largely due to Spiritual malfeasance, my unwillingness to Value anything less than Utopic Perfection . Dave Mason lyrics, "Understanding is the key" but Zen Master Seung Sahn once scolded me, "Too much Understanding CANNOT help you ." I mean, there's that .
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