...there's a Zoo too...

I use-ta bemoan my Mental State by issuing the FACT that I have an Orphanage of ALL my Wounded Inner Kidz living in Woe-iz-mee County.  I've come to realize that the Orphanage is NOT the only institution in that State.  There's a PENITENTIARY .  There's a ZOO too .

When I'm "Not my self" you gotta figure I'm in one of THOSE Institutions.

THIS is why I LOVE to salve, 
I do NOT wish to be responsible for ANY Negativity. 

I must be going.
In fact
I CAME to say,
"I must be going."


Rock Steady.........steady as She goes....

Inner Sinner

We can "Psychologize" that one's Inner Core, or Inmost Being is that of  Some Wicket Cosmic Superhuman Entity, like Jesus or Buddha.  Yeah I can agree with that TO A POINT > . <   Even though I KNOW that  the Path of the Bodhisattva is the Galactic SUPREME  I can't walk that Path.  I use if for "Orientation" and not much else.  I have resigned myself >  IN THIS LIFETIME <  to treading a Path that leads toward Rebirth into Fertile Buddha Fields,  Buddhist code for, being reborn NEAR a Temple, and born to Parents who resource Spirituality.  Here, I believe I NEED access to MY PRIMITIVE Instinct-Uality which MAY be triggered by Karmic Conditions.  I NEED this manner of Self Protection to (get this) protect my "Self" from my self.

There is a NATION of Stephens who demand "Voice". 

My Obstinate Bronco Bucks ^^^^^^^^^ ---
My Kung- Fu Cobra has "Fangs".
My Birth Dragon breathes FIRE.

Because I am a Swordsman  I have an Edge.

Chuang Fu translates "Inner Truth".  Be wary of this "Inner".

"Bathed In Lightning"

I have been indicted for "Using the Past to construct a Future" otherwise know as "Living In The Past"....  I have argued elsewhere that MY "Past" is the Foundation of TODAY'S Reality.  The Stephen that use to lift in his Youth >>  is the Stephen that CONTINUES to lift THESE days.  Then there's the Stephen who, In The Past, could NOT "write", and THAT "Stephen" must NOT be allowed anywhere the Modern Stephen who CAN ryte.  These tw o inhabit the SAME body but have completely DIFFERENT Minds.  Woe I say, WOE is me.

I cited the Tibetan Master Milarepa who, in his Youth, EXTINCTED villages and their residents with his Black Arts Sorcery .  Ugly was he, Hideous and Grotesque.  But then, Somethin' Happened.
He became the student of an EVEN  MORE POWERFUL THAN HE Master , who guided him to a Cave and condemned, "See you in T-W-E-N-T-Y  Y----E----A----R----S !!!!"

When Milarepa emerged he was BATHED IN LIGHTNING. 

From MONSTER to Bodhisattva >>>>>>

"Shit happens" and so does "Change".

...from the transitive verb, to Destiny

I continued my argument by trying to remind folks that ALL of US have the NATURAL Inclination toward dismissing OBVIOUS Negativity and FAVORING Positivity..... > Let me remind you Kidz further >> If we were to remain steadfastly focused on the shortcomings, drawbacks, ire-resolutions and Psycho- Opathy of our Most Beloved Intimate and Closest Friends & Allies aint ONE of us gonna"Get Laid" and NOT ONE OF US is gonna have a Friend in ANY fucking Neighborhood.  IN ORDER TO SURVIVE we MUST exert our STRONGEST Pressure on the Concentration of GOODNESS, the One that affords Us Relief and Respite that we may continue the Trudge to Death that this Existence Destinys.

I KNOW we don't need another fucking OLD-WHITE-PLUTOCRAT-ELITIST, but if HE'S THE ONLY ONE then by IFF definition, HE'S THE ONE.

I KNOW about his "Stop and Frisk" Atrocity.  Know what ??     I DON'T CARE bc I CAN'T CARE--
If I do NOT "Compartmentalize" then I MUST endure the AGONY of "What if".

I am unwilling to endure that kind of Misery.

The Rats of Pluto

I've come "under attack" because I claimed Bloomberg, an old-White-Guy-X-republican, MAY be the ONLY Candidate who is CAPABLE of beating Trump into Submission.  My HERO Anand Giridharadas ,  DID "Say it best" when he hacksawed, "We don't need another Plutocrat in Office".  I GET  that :   > HOWEVER< , There is an ABJECT NECESSITY to BURY trump ALIVE with a LANDSLIDE of Democrat WILLS.  I argued that THIS ONE TIME it MAY be NECESSARY to "Fight Fire with FIRE" and I used the  MMA and BOXING example of "Fighting in one's own weight class."  Sending in the Midget Wrestling Champion of Tai Pei Common and Singapore Province is UN-LIKELY to be to our UTMOST ADVANTAGE.  It's the Whole Thing of "It takes one to KNOW one"  "Deal".

And I could and WOULD survive the "Let's IMPEACH DeSilva" were it not for Psychology, the UNDERLYING Foundation of Miss Understanding.  Here it is that HUMAN NATURE, at least ONE Facet of It, EXPLAINS the VALUE of "Compartmentalization" the One that locks-away JUDICIOUS Negativity in a deep dark corridor of HORROR, exampled by Noble Peace Prize Winner Obama, who was responsible for the slaying of HUNDREDS by his Drones.

We COMPARTMENTALIZE this Human Atrocity in favor of SECURING his Compassionate BRILLIANCE. 

Know what ?   FUCK YOU !!!!

It AINT "workin' for me now and it may NEVAH. !

...crapets...

I gotta leave this here.  It's almost time  for Fareed Zakaria and I still gotta vac the carpets which have become crapets. 

I was stunned to read that in past few days I have had over 500 readers.

What happened ?


Rock steady........steady as She goes....

The gross in grocery ~~

So just now as I was loading the Coffee Maker with cinnamon, the entire contents of the cinnamon container spilled into the coffee filled paper basket filter.  I began to shovel it back into the original container but HUGE amounts of coffee was also being removed.  I had to get the BIG "Chock Full Of Nuts" grain elevator in which to empty the entire paper basket filter.  I chastised myself bc I HAVE a specialty cinnamon shaker container that pulses INCREMENTAL amounts into the coffee filled paper basket filter,which is made from recycled waste from Hatti and the Dominican Republic who allow ample "Use" of the Paper and Rag Waste in their Dumps and Landfills.   It puts the gross in grocery .

When I returned I went for my reading glasess ["I have brand new eyes from Cataract Removal and Lens Replacement and now I can't see for shit] and they had turned into Invisible, either that or I'd be FORCED to commit Suicide bc I'm a complete fucking IDIOT !

I split into mulllllllllltttiiiiippppllllllleee  Steves.  You know how, "One hand doesn't know what the other is doing ?"   Well with me it's "[A] Stephen STOLE my fucking glasses and NOW I gotta KILL him."

Ya know Kids
First the Cinnamon gets dumped RUINING 5 seconds worth of inattentive behavior and next thing I know I'm on a Search and Destroy Mission to kill    The Asshole Who Spilled The Cinnamon And Then couldn't Find His Glasses.

You can't BUY this kind of delightful Misery.  All bc I crave coffee.

Constant Raving

I've written in "Else-Where" that had I NOT " gotten 'into' " Sword I would have killed myself in Long Ago.  Alcoholism was an Addiction that served as BARRIER.   It NUMBED me to the World, it allowed me live WITHOUT Love.  Indeed, if ever you are of the mind, seek out Constant Craving by Dr. Doreen Virtue ( I shit you NOT, that's her name, "Virtue")  a Knowing Ms. I saw in and interview.  When asked about Booze she Betty Boop-ed, "Oh that's an easy one---craving Booze is craving LOVE." 

As someone whose Mother did not and COULD not Love, you MAY well understand that there WASN'T enough Booze in the UNIVERSE to satisfy my NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED !

"Back" Pain

I'm SUPPOSE-TO be writing about how I've turned into my Mother the Witch.  I DID promise that.  Problem is > , <  that Particular Stephen is nowhere to be found, at least this morning.  If he WERE here, he'd be writing about how his Heart got so scarred, and that it got so shriveled, that it is INCAPABLE of Love.  HOW it got so grotesquely mangled could take MONTHS of Psychological Examination and CLINICAL Exploration but HOW can that be of ANY Value to my Readers since the Summary would be the doltish, "Don't be like me" or  "Try to AVOID the Suffering with which I have impaled myself. "  OBVIOUSLY ,    "THAT don't work neither".

I'm at "stall" because of Reticence, the reluctance of  "unwilling", the Unwilling NESS of delving into the Past, the Past that CONTINUES to generate Suffering.  In Buddhism there are, what's referred to as, the "Three Worlds".   They are "The Past, The Present, and The Future."   It's annoyingly bewildering that these "Worlds" are "Ongoing", meaning you CAN "visit" the Past, you CAN "visit" the Future and you CAN "live there" as you do now, in the exact same way as you live in the Present. 

The PROBLEM with that is quite complex.  In an event where you are transported, is your PRESENT Consciousness transported WITH you, or is it somehow excised in order to have you "fit in" ? 

When I "go back" in Time, when I drag myself BACK, I expose myself to the Agony of the Past, the one that generates "IT" in an "Ongoing" manner. 

It HURTS to go to Back.

The YOU-Niverse

I suffer from "Cosmic Extraction".  I find it necessary to impose Cosmic Intention onto just about EVERYTHING, figuring, as Jung did, "There's no such (a) thing as "Coincidence".  As I was tearing up the Weight Room I found Last Summers Marijuana "Harvest", which, when properly processed, (baked into Magic Brownies ) >> produces HEAVENLY Defilement, the one of SUPER- SENSATIONAL Physicality, Wonder, Tickle, Flit and Wiggle. 

But the suspenders ... Is it JUST me or can you Gize appreciate that I had to SUSPEND, writing my twitter column in order to locate my suspenders ?   The You-Niverse wanted me to SUSPEND my efforts, I was being HELD-uP by the Universe.  It was a "Hold-uP" >>>  I was getting ROBBED !!!

You can see it Rite ?

Me too.

Suspended Suspension

This morning  I sat before this screen prepared, (I THOUGHT prepared) to do a HOLE Thing on the 10 Commandments, mainly because the other day, while I was doing laundry, this surfaced >>> "Thou shalt NOT bear (bare) false witness against thy neighbor" >> a "Thing" which the Swamp King Thing aka donald chump, sack-religions (sacrileges) simply as a matter of Course.  As I was typing I realized I was Empty, and NOT in a "good" Buddhist Way but in the Writer's Block-Head sorta way, the one where I approach the Abyss and see the Void and figure, wow, I got NOTHIN'. 

I pushed the seat back and went to lift but my old threadbare and nearly shredded Carhartt flannels, that double as pajamas, needed suspenders but when I went to locate them they became invisible---it's either that or I had to commit Suicide FOR FAILING TO REMEMBER THEIR EXACT LOCATION!   I tore up the Weight room, the (Can't) Walk Into Closet, the Cave and then back around AGAIN just on-accounta I'm INSANE.  There's NOTHING quite like self-brutality the one where mental flagellation is the ONLY way to punish one's-self for indiscriminate STUPIDITY.

WHY must I make a CONCERTED Effort to remember where I place important items ???????

What worse is that I IMMEDIATELY Elevate "suspenders" to Cosmic Ramifications.









 

My Mother the Witch

It's 1:16 a.m.   I've gone as far as I can in this my beloved Darkness.  I'm gonna continue this tomorrow but with a vastly different slant.

Let me tease you with this ::

I've become my Mother   ---    My Mother the Witch.

The Mother who could not love.  That's it ---  that's me.


Rock steady........steady as She goes....

Love -- A Miracle Style

Not many Folks are geared to accept, "All Existence entails Suffering".   It's understandable of course.  Who wants to believe that the Nature of Existence is Suffering ?   Isn't it far EASIER to believe that the True Nature of the Universe is LOVE ?  After all, isn't God LOVE ?  Thing with that, and hear I holler Ludwig Feuerbach, "If God is Love, [then] is Love God ?"   Tough one.

Here's one :  God is Love, I LOVE pizza, God must be PIZZA.

See ?

My deal is that the World of Happy-Happy-Joy-Joy DOESN'T make much sense to me.  But in the REAL World, it makes PERFECT Sense.  THIS is why I'm Mentally Ill.   I have NEVER been able to reconcile Buddha's World with the REAL World.  It's not as if I've Tried however, it appears as IMPOSSIBLE.

My newest challenge, perhaps my GREATEST CHALLENGE OF ALL TIME, is to make an effort to live in the World of Happy Happy Joy Joy.

Dues and Don'ts

I've projected a Two World "Condition".  Joseph Campbell of The Hero With A Thousand Faces fame describes "Master of Both Worlds" a Heroic Individual who has "Mastered" Existence in the Realms of Heaven and Earth, which I have assiduously "dumbed-down" to Academia and Street/Gutter.  Because of my Education and Private Studies, because I have a Degree from a University and because of all my Street and Gutter Occupations, Trades and Experiences I feel that I am FULLY  Capable of "Operating" in the Both of these "Realms".  I know BOTH languages,  I've done my time and paid my dues. 

If only That was the Ease of it.

I got it rong.

The Worlds are  >>>   The World of NORMALITY and the World of Fantasy.

I don't speak the language of Normality no good.

First I Look At The Curse

The title is from J. Geils Band >=   "First I Look At The PURSE"  .   The ONLY J. Geils Band Album you Kidz will EVA Need is "LIVE    FULL HOUSE"  >> .    But that's a blog series for another day.

I used this title to hy-lite that Some guys need MONEY to open up their heart bank.  When you have J. Geils  TALENT I suppose you can make that kind of a Demand.  Most of us do NOT have that talent,, so we look for Other Things "First".  But I digress...... .

I love using, "We create our own Perceptual Reality".  It's fancy, slick and smooth and can go unchallenged because it appears as "Self-Evident".  It's HARDLY "Self-Evident".  Here's the Question, "WHAT do we use to create this Perceptual Reality ?  Ah Yes >>>  THAT !
Here, Philosophy MAY be the antecedent we MUST use to begin our Creation.  Here it is that I have chosen The First Nobel Truth  "All Existence Entails Suffering". 

Here MAY be the root of my Adulthood Schizophrenia The One that has multiple Stephens trying to exist in a World where Suffering is regarded as an Essence to be AVOIDED. 

Buddhism as the Source of my Mental Illness .....................anybody buying that ?

Deploration

When I have a Sword in my hand, or a chainsaw, or almost ANY tool, I do NOT have to "prove" myself to ANYBODY >>  my work "Speaks" for itself << .  But place a pen, in this instance a keyboard and screen, and lo and behold Confidence evap----or-------a------t--------e----------  s  .
Put a Broad in front of me and I'm fucked <>  and NOT in the Good Way.
My X once ended, "I love you but I can't TAKE you 24 7."   Crissy Hind and her Pretenders do a mob hit that riots, "Your demands were unending."  So it was..... I understood her.   All I wanted was EVERYTHING.  I can cackle at that, even sneer.

I THINK that's why I'm writing tonite---to defend myself AGAINST my own Insanity, my own Mental Illness, my own Social Autism, my own Bi-Polarism, my own Blindingly Selfish-Icity, you know the one, the one whose Arrogance cloaks unrelenting Inferiority and not the GOOD Kind, the one of Humility >>> ^ <<<  But the one of inexorable Deploration  (deplorable-ness), the one that causes me to manifest [on the street] with "menacing intensity". 

That's why I try to stay off the Streets, stay AWAY from Innocents.

Were I rich I'd be a reclusive Eccentric, thing is I'm NOT rich, the exact OPPOSITE actually >> so all THAT makes me is fucked-uP.

The Rite Suff .......

You Kidz know I've tagged myself with Mental Ill-ship.  It's safe, I THOUGHT it was safe ->- It's like a warning, a Caution NOT to take me TOOOOOO Seriously, mainly because I CHOSE to live in a Fantasy Realm of Spiritual Hardship, Misery and Materialistic Idolatry, the one that decries Wealth, Political Status and Stereotypical Superficiality.  I've defended this Realm by claiming I am in a constant WAR against Ignorance, I loathe Ignorance, and since I myself and TRULY Ignorant, Self-Loathing is my most Intimate and Cherished "Friend".  I have other "Friends"  Loneliness, Co-Lateral Abandonment, and it's weird that their proximity is a Source of an unrelenting Suspicion that forces me to regard their ABSENCE as savagely punishing.  You normal folks CRAVE Happiness, I FEAR It.  When things are "All RIGHT" that's the Time my Senses get tuned to "Catastrophe".

I've rit-ten this before and I'll rite it once more > !!>>  I love to Suffer, Suffering  makes me Happy.

This makes me devastatingly ILL-suited for Existence in your World.

Life is but a scheme...

I've got a raging migraine, my tinnitus is searing my brain to shreds, I'm exhausted and I can't sleep.  Do I win ?

I must confess, it's no longer funny to write > Anywhere I start is the Beginning.   There's no grace in that, it's crass, if not flat-out brutish...  oh well...... .

I lie in bed praying intermittently, wondering about a God who may or may not Exist,  I choose "Exist" mainly to cover my ass, cover my bases, I consider it "Spiritual Insurance".  There IZ a Solace in a Benevolent Cosmic Intelligence, but Its seeming arbitrary-ness lends itself to Absurdity, sometimes Grotesque >>> the Higher Power that is said to have sobered me, >  Isn't that the Same Higher Power that inflicted me with Alcoholism in the first place ?   See what I mean ?   It's why I devised, American Transcendental Absurdist Cynicism --- to label Impossible Incomprehension Paralysis resulting.

I had a really terrific, at least what I thought MITE be Terrific  Opening.   Remember that line in Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching  "A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step "  I figure i would rite,
The journey of the Last Mile begins with a trip and fa
                                                                                       l
                                                                                            l.

It means I'm on that last mile, the mile that leads to Death.


 

"They became what they beheld".

In the same way that Communism collapsed and from its debris putin's Corruptionism emerged ;  so it is with Democracy and trump's Corruptionism. 

In the EXACT Same Way that putin IZ Russia, so it is that trump IZ America.

We have become what we have beheld.


Rock Steady........steady as She goes....

The Orange CRUSH

I almost began this Blog by using trump and his life to describe the Failure of Parental Guidance.  Trump personifies ALL That Is Negative About Parental Protection >> Political Atrocity resulting.  As I went to refill my coffee mug, I got mugged by my own Toynbee-esque Consideration.  Way back in a Long Time Ago I argued that the End Of Democracy "was when" America Radioative-ly INCINERATED Millions of Japanese CIVILIANS.  I swear there could NEVER be a Greater Human Atrocity.  Americans talk about "Ethnic Cleansing" after THEY applied Radioactive EXTERMINATION to an entire Nation.  It can't get more fucked-uP than that.

In this regard, I label the Election of trump as the END of the American Democratic Republic, since the Will of the MAJORITY was summarily DISMISSED as INSIGNIFICANT by a GROTESQUE Minority, that of the American Electoral College, the very Same that was SUPPOSE to ENSURE that a COMMON CRIMINAL could NOT ascend to the Presidency.

Look what happened. 

Trump as The Orange CRUSH.

..."my parents pay"...

I've been searching for the Cause for The Downfall of the American Republic.  The Cause shifts depending on the Metaphor employed.  For instance, if I use AA as a Paradigm I can issue that The Cause for The Demise of American Democracy is Lack of "Vigilance" >>> that's the one where we, as Alcoholics, get lulled into a Sense of Security, the One where, "It's OK if I have just one drink".  Next thing we know we're back in the "Spin-dry" for Round 2.  In a Democratic State, there is an ABJECT Need for Politician and Policy SCRUTINY, a Scrutiny that GUARANTEES, the monitoring of Potential Corruption so that it can be excised BEFORE it becomes cancerous.  In America there is an attitude of Significant "NON-Confrontation", the one where if a Something does NOT directly effect ME then "IT" is of no consequence.

Presently, I'm of the Belief that this "Attitude-As-Condition" is the manifestation of a Genetic FLAW in the DNA of Democracy.  Democracy can work ONLY in an Environment of INTENSE Observation.  No Observation No Purity.

It ain't "Just That".  Besides the Genetic Pre-Disposition resides the Prevailing Social Order which allows Sloth, indeed, an Order which GUARANTEES Failure of the Social Level and THIS Flaw, I believe has its origin and source in Familial (Parental) DIS-Order.

In an Effort to PROTECT their offspring Parents have quite unwittingly provided a Growth Medium that Viruses Apathy.

Gallogly and I once asked a U.Conn Co-Ed what it cost them to attend.  "I don't know my parents pay."

See it ?

No "Skin in the Game"

For those of us growing-up in the late 60's the Threat of Conscription was "over our heads" at all times, at least for us Males.  I had High School Classmates who KNEW they were going to Viet Nam and that was "IT" for them.  When I heard them laugh and joke about it I felt sickened.  At least I had a chance with a "2S" Deferment.  I played Little League, Junior High and High School Baseball with this guys, I could NOT understand the ease in which they viewed WAR.

The Deal with that shit is referred to as "Skin In The Game", our lives were "at Stake", we were lashed to the Mast, kindling and wood beneath our feet, because of the Prevailing Political Propensity to arrest the Threat Threat and Incursion of Communism, the one that bastardized, "Take Up The White Man's Burden" and transmogrifiablly ignited it into, "The RED Scare". 

I WAS SCARED. ALL of us were scared.  Every night on the Evening News we saw the corpses of the Heroic Fallen, being carried and dragged to impatient Huey "choppers", amid the background of Mindless Broadcasters trying to soothe us with, "Well It was a GOOD Day We killed more of them than they killed us."

It sickened me then--it sickens me now, but NOW it's even worse.  Know why ?

NO ONE GIVES A SHIT !

Know Why ?

No "Skin In The Game."

Hong Kong Strong

I hope at least A Few Of You, remember the Ukraine Barricade Resistance.  The Ukrainians were Protesting Russian Imperialist Hegemony, what they considered INVASION, which ultimate manifested as the Annexation of Crimea, and the INVASION of Eastern Ukraine, the Territory of Russian owned Oil Pipeline, the One upon which the E.U. depends for its LIFE.

There was film footage of the Ukraine Work Force as ARMY behind Street Trash and Pallet Fortifications, IN SUB-ZERO ARCTIC/SIBERIAN TEMPERATURES, "Holding Their Own" in PATRIOTIC Defense of Ukraine WESTERN Ideology, the Ideology of  "Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness." 

My Heart ACHED for them, as it does Now for the Hong Kong Throng. 

I grew up with Protests, Marches and Sit-In Barricades.  I recall that Anti-War desks were situated in the Student Union, EVERY Day, with Protests on the Weekends.  Our Friends were being SLAUGHTERED In Viet Nam, as were The Indigenous.

We OPENLY condemned Human Failure Atrocity resulting.

Where has all that Power gone ?

Hong Kong

The other Sunday, or it cooda-been 2 HUNDRED Sundays Ago, Farred Zakaria presented The "Arab Spring" as a complete FAILURE.  Nothing was achieved, and Things, may have even take a Turn for The Worse.  Street Power, the Power of March & Protest, served only to ignite the Right to exert ITS Power, to castrate and lobotomize the People through Starvation and Thirst.  The Starvation for Prosperity, the Thirst for Justice and Equanimity. 

"The more things change, the more they stay the same."

Zakaria then focused on Hong Kong and the Protests There, Protests whose duration has exceeded an unimaginable Length.  Here, not only have the Youth of Hong Kong "taken it to the Streets", they have been joined by their Parents, Shopkeepers, Family Business Owners, and to some extent, Corporations themselves, who fear dissolution as Capitalist Enterprises. 

The People are Protesting for what they see as THEIR WAY OF LIFE,  a life presented to them by the British, who introduced them to Parliamentary Democracy.  Now they are threatened by what I will tag as The Tibet Syndrome, the one where a City-State Nation was CONSUMED by Chinese Dictatorial Atrocity.

Hong Kong Fear was made REAL by Chinese "Insistance".

Shove, American Style

It appears that American Democ-rats have NO interest in prevailing upon 18 year olds to enter the American Political System as a Power-Vote Army, choosing instead, to court, if "court" can be used, those Voters that got out of their EZ Chairs to vote for The Hope Dope, Mister Change himself, Kill-them-with-drones Obama.  Supposedly, in a War, EVERY effort is applied to acquire WHATEVER Forces that can be utilized to achieve Victory.

The reasons for this faithless mis-trust may be nefariously multifarious, and although I am PERSONALLY responsive to, "These kids are clueless IDIOTS", that tag MAY be inappropriate at best, at worst, an insightful PROJECTION of my own mental rigormortis, of the BAD sort, the one that labels me, "A Holder-On Of The Past".  I have been accused, violently accused, of "Living In The Past", the Past of Childhood Trauma, Parental "Mis-Management", High School Conscription Anxiety, and The Viet Nam War, which DOMINATED University Political Consciousness.

I am of the Conviction that The Past has made me what I am today.

HY Tymes and Misty Cleaners

I gotta leave this here.  Later on I'm gonna get HY , bleach my toilette and shower area, while listening to Ear Bleeding VOLUME.  There will I seek refuge in Daily Toil and Stereo Consolation.

Some of you may remember I warned you Gize that if trump got elected he would induce the New Dark Ages.  So he has and so it has become.  Hatred, Fear and GREED has made America Grate Again.


Rock steady........steady as She goes....

Pelosi the Grate

I'm gonna blame Pelosi for the Collapse of the American Republic. 

Her unwillingness to adhere to CONSTITUTIONAL Obligations and Duties has opportuned trump's Corruption to administer GLOBAL Atrocities to Humankind.

Once she ascended to the Office of President Once Removed, she should have WEAPONIZED Human DECENCY  and ATTACKED trump and his for their SUBHUMAN Cruelty.

Trump's Unconditioned Surrender to putin IZ trump putting a bullet through Ms Liberty's skull and into her brain IN BROAD DAYLIGHT while standing on 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue.

Trump the Great had done it. 

He said he would.

Pelosi took no notice.

Trump the Great

It was Constantine the Great who moved the capitol of the Roman Empire, Rome, to Byzantium, and so renamed the capitol as "Constantinople". 

Now hold on as I make Parallel with Trump's Departure from New York State to Florida, and in so doing REMOVING Washington D.C, as American Empire capitol and making the NEW capitol, Trumpistan, Florida. 

Constantine has been aggravated for making Christianity the Religion of the Empire, and so it is that trump has made CORRUPTION as THE Religion of the Chosen Elite. 

Here (in this Time) it is that Pelosi and her impending Impeachment, represent "The Barbarians At The Gates", and here, rather than stay and battle, trump has chosen RELIEF by being among the Those-Such-As-He-Is, brain-dead Geriatrics who live in the Fountain of Perpetual Youth.

Christianity by this time was UNRECOGNIZABLE due to FINANCIAL Blood-Thirstiness.
Christ had been REPLACED by Economic Considerations,i.e., enough WEALTH to drive more than one Empires.  Indeed Christianity was to be transformed into the Holy Roman Empire.

Holy Fucking Christ .

"For a Few Hollers More"

After rite-ing Twitter, I nestled into the warm caress of Chairy-Chair and wondered if I could summon the Strength to blog-out a few Blogs.  This is ALWAYS an Effort to enter Emptiness,
The Rich and Fertile Dimension of Intellectual S-P-A-C-E.  This, too, is a Condition of Warmth.
But as I settled into this Warmth a Something "surfaced" pretty much as a result of this morning's "Beating Up Gramma Polluted", Nancy Pelosi.  It was odd because "it" came in the form of Past Experience, that of The Collapse of the Soviet Union.

Here it comes again, even as I type these words >>>  Since I have experienced the Collapse of the Soviet Empire, isn't it POSSIBLE that I should experience the Collapse of the American Empire as well ????

THAT'S now I am presently viewing Nancy Pelosi, as "Old Mother Hubbard who lived in a shoe and had so many children she didn't know what to do."   But and Now, you can see that my Past experience with my own God-Forsaken Loveless Mother, DENIES me access to a Realm of Responsible Awareness.

Here it is as Most Bitter >>>

Pelosi is al-Bagdhadi leading her children, the Youth of America, into the Black Hole Death Cave to be ex-PLODED into molecules because of HER "Belief System".

Can you see it ?

"A Fistful of Hollers"

After toiling at Twitter for tw o hours I'm hard-pressed to ravage for a few hours more to produce MEANINGFUL Blogs.  ANYBODY can rite shit for 4 or five hours, I'm PROOF of that, but my Age has generated an Intellectual Sobriety that DEMANDS not only Conviction but Essential Insight. otherwise, what's the fucking POINT ??? > ! < 

Thing with THAT is, True Scholarship makes ITS demands as well>> the so-called Conditioned NON-Conditionality that requires Exposition-al Clarity >> a Clarity that is capable of shedding Light upon the Gross of Dim Witted-Ness, the abject Defilement of  Knowledge, the Subversion of Education, that somehow Weaponizes Ignorance.  This AIN'T for the feint of Heart nor the Weak Willed.  Age has made me Both. 

...the Age in rAge...

I was HORROR-Stricken at trump's order of Unconditional Retreat the result of an Unconditional SURRENDER to putin.  I couldn't write, not because I had no words, but because I was PARALYZED by that Horror.  Paralysis never "use-ta" happen because in Olden Days I was so much YOUNGER.  THESE days news acts as baseball bats in the hands of a Chimpanzee ARMY.  I am beaten into a grotesque submission which reduces me to a quivering-feverish mass of blood-soaked mental flesh which prevents me from describing the Pain and Torment of Human Atrocity, shit for which I use-ta have GUTS.  No longer.

Every day I experience a seeming RELENTLESS Procession of Stephens Past who march by and scream "WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU OLD MAN ?????"  Age happened. 

Age.

I am who I WAS

I've been repeatedly attacked for "Living in the Past"--it's fair criticism that I am loathe to reject.  I was asked, "Why do you hold on to the Past so tightly KNOWING that it is cause for the Stymie of Emotional Advancement, the Kind that is Trajectorally Progressive ? 

In MY mind, this is the question of Psychological Imbecility.  Not only do "We act according to the way we see things" >>  We UNDERSTAND things as a RESULT of PAST Experiences.  You add to that the FACT that most of our PRESENT Power is also the Result of Past Discipline and Training, you can fully appreciate, or SHOULD fully appreciate, The Past as FOUNDATION of Present Conditional Actuality.  One can argue that TECHNICALLY >>>   I am who I WAS <<<<<.

Most often Scholarship is predicated upon a lucidity afforded by Historical Anecdotes and made RELEVANT by PREVAILING Conditions that generate Parallels which promote REAL TIME Recognition.  Recognizing Cosmic Similarities enhances a Diagnostic that precipitates UNDERSTANDING. 

In Street Terms > = <   "Hey I KNOW what that is, I seen it before."